From Darkness to Divine Light: My Journey to Salvation
From Darkness to Light, From Despair to Joy
“Tomorrow I turn 34, and as I reflect on the year I've had, I can't help but marvel at the profound changes that have taken place in my life. Age 33 was the year I found Salvation—a year of spiritual awakening, redemption, and rebirth. Little did I know what would unfold when someone told me, "It's your Jesus year" last September.
In the years leading up to this transformative period, God had been orchestrating a profound clearing of my life. Painful losses and experiences, known only to God, had brought me to the brink of despair. I had lost everything and everyone that once defined my existence. The climax of this period of suffering occurred a month after I turned 33 when my beloved cat was cruelly taken from me. To many, it may seem trivial, but that feline companion had been my anchor in the midst of the raging storm. I wept continuously for four long months, besieged by an insidious voice that whispered doubts about God's existence and the fairness of my circumstances. It questioned why I deserved such torment and urged me to reject all that was good in the world.
For four months, I engaged in a spiritual battle, resisting the temptation to succumb to these dark thoughts. And in February, unable to bear the pain any longer, I reached out to God, broken and desperate. I cried out, "God, if you're real, I need you, I need help."
Psalm 121
A song of ascents.
1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
The next day, as I stood in the shower, I experienced a profound transformation. I was baptized in the Holy Spirit and found myself in the presence of God. It felt as if oil was being poured over my head, a sensation of undeniable divine presence. In that moment, all doubt dissolved, and I raised my hands in surrender, acknowledging the divinity of Jesus Christ.
Then, I was transported to Hell, where I felt the unimaginable torment, a reflection of my own life and choices. I understood that I belonged there, and I glimpsed the essence of divine judgment. God revealed that I had opened my heart to the demonic through occult practices, revealing the dark master I had chosen. It was an answer to the question I had carried throughout my life: "How could a loving God condemn people to Hell?"
But as I gazed upon the shadows of Satan, I was suddenly lifted into a brilliant white light—the presence of Christ. Love, mercy, grace, and forgiveness washed over me in a powerful surge. Christ assured me, "I was always with you, I never left."
Matthew 28:20
New International Version
20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
In the wake of this experience, I emerged with a newfound sense of joy, an overwhelming feeling of liberation, and the removal of burdens that had weighed me down for years. For three weeks, I remained in prayer and repentance.
Habakkuk 3:18-19
New International Version
18 yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.19 The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to tread on the heights.For the director of music. On my stringed instruments.
My life was forever changed this year. I felt both the fear and the all-encompassing love of God. Now, six months into my journey with Christ, I am His eternal servant, eternally grateful for both what God has given and what He has taken away. As a former unbeliever who had amassed a library of occult knowledge, I quickly learned the dangers of objects carrying curses and the importance of spiritual cleansing.
Objects I once believed to hold power were discarded, and my once-vivid dreams turned into nightmares. I realized that my dreams had been a conduit for demonic influence, and I was under attack. I sought guidance from God, and He revealed that even my crystal collection was tainted. In a vision, I saw witches using my crystals for dark purposes, and I felt compelled to rid myself of these objects. I took them to the river, where I rebuked and cast each one into the water.
One fateful night, I awoke from a nightmare, my hand raised toward the sky, pushing something away. The Holy Spirit of God had acted through me, repelling the malevolent force. I haven't had a nightmare since.
Deuteronomy 7:26
New International Version
26 Do not bring a detestable thing into your house or you, like it, will be set apart for destruction. Regard it as vile and utterly detest it, for it is set apart for destruction.
As Deuteronomy 7:26 reminds us, "Neither shalt thou bring an abomination into thine house, lest thou be a cursed thing like it." My journey to salvation has been a powerful lesson in the purification of my life and soul, as I've learned to trust in God's guidance and protection. May my 34th year be dedicated entirely to God Almighty. 🙏”
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